There were pills to get to sleep, pills to get up and go and pills to come down and so on in the vicious circle that could not be broken even if she wanted it to. There were so many bottles, it was alarming but they had all been prescribed so there was nothing to worry about; her manager had said as much as the Doctors knew what they were doing.
But this
particular afternoon was hazy; cocktails started early as part of the working
lunch but there was no food, or if there was, it went unnoticed as Ruby’s glass
was never empty, her side never alone as she shone and worked her captivated audience.
Until she was in yet
another hotel room that looked every inch like the rest, living out of a
suitcase and unable to function without her meds; not wanting to function
without them so were her insecurities, self loathing and desperation.
Unable to remember
what she had taken and when, Ruby gingerly fingered the small orange bottle
that would send her off into a dreamless, empty sleep; not caring if she ever
awoke because as long as her dreams were empty, she was at peace. . .
I still don't know who MM is but I do like this and it isn't as sad as I expected. It is a bit like your other one about the celebrity. It is sad that someone is so desperate that they don't care if they never wake up. Another well-written piece of short fiction honey. Your pieces are always so descriptive so it is easy to picture in the mind and makes me want to know what will happen next.
ReplyDeleteA vicious circle of dependence, co-dependence and hanger-ons. A good story, well told Lizzie.
ReplyDeleteWell told; a situation that gets played out so often, but you really got into the thought processes there. Nice one.
ReplyDeleteThank you; I tried. xxx
DeleteShades of Whitney and Anna Nicole...plus so many other young rock stars and entertainers. Too real. Too sad. You captured every amazing detail. Wonderful writing.
ReplyDeleteI had been reading about Marilyn and it gave me the idea. Thank you. xxx
DeleteAnother great piece Lizzie, and like Jan said, my mind linked it with your celebrity 'lost' piece!
ReplyDeleteI didn't think of that but I guess 'Cindy' was lucky in losing herself and Ruby unlucky losing herself another way. Maybe I should have used the same character/name? xxx
DeleteExcellent! The perfect example of a confused and troubled soul, looking for comfort in the wrong places!
ReplyDeleteThank you Michelle; glad you liked. Sometimes those wrong places are the only sources of comfort which makes it even more hearbreaking. xxx
DeleteThis has a very realistic ring to it...it makes me think of so many who overdose, searching for that perfect peace and comfort.
ReplyDeleteIt's very sad. :-(
DeleteThank you for your comment. xxx
Hhmm, very sobering x.
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